What I Want For Christmas...Really!:Part 1

I have been just surfing the web for fun today and got lost in my browsing....

Here are the things that I would think would be super cool for Christmas.... I was going to include more things but once again the upload for piccys isn't working so this will be continured.

When I worked at Shorty Small's, we had this pinball game in our game room. One of the other waiters and I spent hours on this thing. We were always trying to beat the other's high score. We even had our customers cheering us on. I need this....

2007 Ford Shelby GT500 Convertible: I'm not even going to say anymore

Because I'm a girl and they are a girl's best friend.....well that's what the song says

Sunset on my Street

A picture for your viewing pleasure. I took this last night at the end of my street. It was absolutely beautiful.

Happy Thanksgiving / Anniversary

Happy Thanksgiving!!

I have had a wonderful Thanksgiving Holiday. We stayed here in Ohio and celebrated with Brad's family. His Dad, Step-mom, Brother, Nephew, and nehew's girlfriend all came over to our house for the big feast.

Yes! I had Thanksgiving dinner at my house this year. It was my first time to cook the Thanksgiving turkey. I was so worried that I would mess it up....but I didn't! I did mess up the cake I tried to bake. I was going to make something sweet for my Lyanna Cole, a cake without eggs. I was supposed to use self-rising flour, I used all purpose. DUH! it looked like a round brick. I ended up throwing it out in the back yard and yelling Happy Thanksgiving birds!

We also trapped the opossum that has been stealing all the cats food at night. Brad bought a trap that trips and locks the possum inside. He took it to West Virginia and let it go. I hope it did't have any family over here...it might take it a while to get back over the Ohio river and all.... I was going to tell our guests that we had trapped it for Thanksgiving Dinner and see what their reaction would be. Hee hee.

On another note. I looked back over the blog and realized that I have been writing here for over one year now. WOW! how far i have come since then. I am definitely not an overly anxious, stressed out mom. I'm just stressed out mom now. And only that some of the time...one year ago I would never have been able to host Thanksgiving at my own home! .....

Some thoughts

Just some things I've been thinking about...

The new Playstation 3..... I can't believe the uproar over this thing. Did Sony really believe that mob rushes and muggings wouldn't happen? When they didn't have enough product for the Japanese market, didn't they know the same thing would happen here? People are crazy.

I went to the site and looked at the videos and screen shots for the new games. I have to admit it looks bad ass. It is so real looking it's scary. One of the games is a zombie shot em up and I don't think I could play it. It would give me nightmares. The sports games, I have to say, looked awesome.

But what I really started thinking about was how realistic they were...

People get hung up playing video games right now....how much more so now? It all looks so real, I keep thinking that people will begin to lose their grasp on reality and dive further and further into the fantasy. I can truly see this happening.

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I got sidetracked from finishing this on the day I was writing it so....that's all I have to think about today. So sorry for getting your hopes up...or maybe not.

Wooooooo Pig Soooooie!

HOW BOUT THEM HOGS!

What a spanking we put to Tennessee tonight. It's so good to see an Arkansas team doing so well. This is the best Razorback team since I can remember. I am sooo hoping that Texas loses tonight! Looks like it's going to happen...

Brad and I are definitely going to Atlanta to watch the SEC conference championship game. That should be sooo much fun!

You gotta listen to the fight song....it is so funny, Brad and I were crying we were laughing so hard. You don't even have to know what the real words are to laugh at this. It is HILARIOUS! Just click on the flag below....it is worth it.

I didn't even know the words to the fight song until Brad and I got married. Now I know it better than he does. This version is from a radio show in Arkansas that we used to listen to all the time. It's one of the characters from the morning show. Shirley Q. Liquor...

New Blogger

Dear Blogger Readers/Posters/Friends..

Have any of you changed to the new and "improved" Blogger where you sign in with Google?
If so how do you like it?

I am curious as to how much better it is than what we have now...

Because...as it says "you can't go back to the old style" if you switch

Changing things Up

I am trying to do some new things with the blog. I've added a list of the books I am reading. I've also added what we are watching on Netflix at the moment. I'm trying to put a new image up, but am having a little trouble....I think I had problems doing this when I first started. I bet I can get it right....

In Between Days

Continuing from "Two Lives":


So...there I was: 30 years old and divorced. Not what I had planned for my life at all. "The Plan" was to be married, two children, nice home, nice job, etc...by 28 years of age. Obviously, I had to come up with a new plan.

The new plan: not to have a plan! I decided to just date and be free and have some fun. It was extremely hard at first. Everytime I went out I would feel guilty....like I was cheating. I had a hard time dealing with the fact that I wasn't committed to one person anymore.

Dating in your 30's is weird. I dated younger guys, older guys, and guys my same age. Only one of them wanted to just date and have some fun without getting all mired in seriousness. I had just gotten out of a totally serious relationship. I wasn't looking for that again. For some reason everyone I dated wanted to get married. I've thought about it alot. What was the deal? I thought guys were supposed to be the ones who DIDN'T want committment...

I think part of the problem was that everyone I dated had never been married. They were looking for "the one", I was so far from being anyone's "one" there wasn't even a chance for them. I just wasn't in the same place they were and it was hard on them.

Now, I did really, really like a few of the guys I went out with. Maybe at another time things could have been different. I truly believe that every one of them, and everything I went through was leading me to when I would meet Brad. Preparing me to know when I had met the person who was right for me.

I did some very brave things while I was single. I had to prove to myself that I COULD function again on my own. I took two massive road trips. Once I drove all the way to Detroit and back, and once I drove to Chicago and back. I even drove through Chicago during rush hour traffic. I was so proud of myself....but I still had to have my friend come out and parallel park my car for me when I got the their house....

I made some stupid mistakes, but I think we all do... like I said..I had to go through some things to get me to the point where I would know that Brad was the right person for me. I got my own apartment...lived on my own for about a year..then had to get a roomie because I just couldn't afford the rent on my own.

I bought a Mustang. :) Very nice dark red, gray leather interior, black detailing, black drop top. Sooooooooo cool. I loved that car so much. My dad loved it too. He went with me when I bought it. The first time I looked out the dealership window and saw my liscense plate on the back of it I about passed out. I know that sounds silly, but I had always always wanted a red Mustang covertible. It was my dream car....and I had it!

I spent A LOT of time on the computer. Probably too much time, but it had been my escape while I was having my marriage problems and I still went there for my social outlet. There isn't much to do where I was living. I was so not into the club scene anymore and I knew everyone my age where I lived. I dated quite a few guys I met online. It could be scary but you just have to be careful.

I watched t.v. again, movies again, I even worked part time at a video/book store. That was fun, but they were dicks about being sick. I had strep throat, 103 fever, and they told me I had to come in to work. Nice huh? I quit instead. I did alot of reading...a lot of soul searching.

What was I looking for? What did I need to change about myself? Did I want to even get married again? I really thought during that time, I was going to be an old maid. I was going to be the creepy old teacher who lived in the haunted looking house. The crazy woman who had 100's of cats running around and chased little kids off her lawn. I had given up the thought of having any children. I wasn't too happy about it, but I had come to peace with the idea.

It was a fun time, discovering myself again. It was a hard time, dealing with the financial burdens of being single again, the emotional baggage, the whole dating scene at 30. It was definitely a learning time for me.

Arkansas Trip

I spent last week in Arkansas with my family. It was the best trip! We were going to fly down there on the 28th, but the airplane was in the shop. So....we took our first big road trip with the girls. They did so well, I was proud of them. It's not easy for a two year old and a one year old to sit that long in a car seat. We drove from Ohio to just outside Bowling Green, Kentucky on Thursday. Spent the night in a motel somewhere in Kentucky. That was interesting.

We got a double room (could you imagine two adults and two babies in one big bed?) Brad slept in one bed with Kenzie....I attempted to sleep in the other bed with Lyanna. She was so wired it was impossible. She thought the room was the coolest thing ever. All that girl wanted to do was wander around the room and check out everything. It was all I could do to keep her in the bed. She finally went to sleep, but woke us all up around 5 am. We got a nice early start on Friday morning thanks to our little alarm clock.

Drove the rest of the way to Arkansas on Friday. Pulled in my parent's driveway at 2:30 in the afternoon. They were so happy to see us and I was so happy to be there. With my anxiety levels dropping, it seems so ridiculous that I was so freaked out about going home for so long. I'm glad I waited til I was healthier mentally, it made for a much nicer visit Im sure.

Brad went up to Fayetteville for the ballgame *Woooooooo Pig Sooooooie!* then drove back to Ohio on Sunday. Poor thing he was wiped out by the time he got back.

My dad had taken Tuesday and Thursday off from work so we could all go out together and do things. On Tuesday we went to the "Pumpking Patch". We took my 5 year old nephew with us. The he and the girls had a GREAT time. They played in the hay, talked to all the animals, and just ran and ran and ran around in the fresh air outside.

On Thursday we went to Little Rock and went shopping. It was nice to go shopping there again. I just love that mall. I don't know what's so special about it. I've just always loved it since I was a little kid.

We also took all the nieces and nephews to a Halloween Carnival. Lyanna won "Cutest Costume". I'll have pictures of them in their costumes later on.

Brad flew down on Sunday and we all flew home Monday morning. The girls did very well on the flight back too. They are good little travelers! (must be the Arkansan in them)

Overall it was a wonderful trip home. The visit was very calm because it wasn't over a major holiday. There wasn't an overwhelming group of people there and my mom was able to play with girls a lot and get in her "grandma" time.

I am really looking forward to Christmas and seeing everyone again.

*I hate the photo upload thing...I had more pics to put up but they won't load*

I am Back!

Hello all! I am back from a much needed week long vacation in Arkansas. I hope my absence didn't freak anyone out. I know when someone in my online group of friends/bloggers drops off the face of the earth for more than a few days I get worried.

I am slowly getting back in my routine and will write more on the "two lives" and my vacation home.