Wednesday, February 28, 2007

We had an eventful night last night.... Brad is gone on Tuesday nights so the girls and I usually have dinner together and hang out til he gets home. I had cooked our mean, fixed everyone a plate, put Lyanna in her chair with hers....when Kenzie decided to puke all over the kitchen floor.

I am learning that with the very young, there is no warning sign or sound that a puke fest is coming just comes. She is standing in the middle of the kitchen looking at me with the most confused look on her face and crying like crazy. I felt so sorry for her...and at the same moment I was thinking "I am sooooooo glad that Brad isn't here."

Lyanna happily ate her dinner while I cleaned up Kenzie, the kitchen, and myself. Turned out she was also running a low grade up on the couch she went with a cup of water and her "boo". I wrapped her up in a great big blanket because I was scared she was going to get sick again and I didn't want it all over my carpet and couch.....that would totally suck! hour later, Lyanna is finished and I have to clean her up and THEN I can finally eat....not that I felt like it after all that.

Kenzie seemed to do alright the rest of the evening so...we did bath and bedtime ritual as usual. Around 11:30 Brad and I go up to bed, and I go to check on the girls....

I didn't even have to open the door before I could smell it.....ugh!!! Lyanna had gotten sick all in her bed. SO...I was up til around 2:30 cleaning, washing sheets, washing children, rocking children...and just plain ole worrying.

Needless to say I am a tired woman today. Thankgoodness it seems like this is just a short lived virus. No new sickness today, just fevers. Motrin seems to have kicked that in the butt and they both ate some toast around 11:30 with a popsickle.

Yay! I hate it when they are sick...

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Wow is it Tuesday already? The weekend went by so fast. I can't even tell you what we did....

Oh yeah, we had a birthday party on Saturday. Went to the indoor play place called Out And About Kids. Really cool idea and great for winter time here. The girls had cake (I made special cupcakes for Lyanna with no eggs), Kenzie got to have icecream. They also had pizza and sub sandwichs for the adults.

Then we went to Ruby Tuesdays for a little something more substantial., and my usual grocery store run.1`

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I didn't get to finish this post......too much "help".

Monday, February 26, 2007

You Are An INFJ
The Protector
You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Friday, February 23, 2007

Flashback Friday?

In an effort to keep from being too boring, and to keep me from becoming lazy on here I have decided to try a "day" again. I am going to try making Fridays: "Flashback Fridays".

I have kept a journal of some kind since I was 12 years old. idea is to pick a day of the year...doesn't matter what and to find an old entry to talk about. I will take date suggestion from you my wonderful readers. Pick a day that has some significance to you and I'll see what I can come up with for that day or as close to it as I can get. There are huge gaps in my writing when I just didn't do it.

Tell me what you think and if you are up to suggesting days.

Today I am going to share with you something I wrote 2/19/1997 or '98. I was married to my first husband and taking some grad classes. It was written at 2:00 am in the morning. Amazing that I was up that late....I can't remember when I've seen 2 am in the past 4 or 5 years and not been pissed that I was awake.

A Good Day

Do you ever have one of those really good days? I guess they would probably be different for everyone. My good days are usually on Thursdays. I usually wake up early, in a good mood. I have time to dress nice, put on a little make-up and fix my hair. I always feel really good about myself when I have time to look nice. I gain an air of self-confidence.

Usually on my happy days the sun is out. I love sunshine. Not just how some people enjoy sunny days, I mean I really love it. I love the way it feels on my skin and hair, warming me even on the coldest days. It's as if the sun lays a warm blanket across my arms. I can put on my sunglasses and stay outside in the sun for hours.

I get to school and I usually have to walk a pretty good ways to class. It doesn't matter, I'm having a good day and nothing bothers me. I smile at the people I pass and they always seem to smile back. The air smells fresh and clean and if there is a small breeze, I'm in heaven.

I tend to relate certain types of days to sports. In the spring when the wind is blowing, the air is fresh and cool, and t he sun is shining, I always think of running track. In the fall when the dusty smell of falling leaves blows through the wind I always think of football. It's a nostalgic feeling, but not one of sadness. it is a nostalgia of great times. Playing basketball with my brothers, jumping hurdles on the black asphalt, or sitting in the bleachers with the band waiting for the team to run out.

Good memories for a great day.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

February Snow Day

Here is the snow we had on Sunday, today it is raining...go figure. I'm glad that it is getting warmer this week. I was tired of it being so cold and having to stay cooped up in the house. I know the girls probably feel the same way!

Thursday, February 15, 2007


Well, in my attempt to quit being so blah right now I have started writing again in the RP game I used to play. Made up a totally new character and started completely from scratch. I think it's a good start. I have a lot of stories in my head, I just tend to think them up while I'm in bed trying to fall asleep and by the time I get up in the morning I forget them. I know I should drag my butt out of bed and write them down..... I would just turn on my light and write them down but my hubby tends to get pissed when I turn on the light and wake him up. I'm too lazy to get all the way up out of bed because when I get in bed I'm there, and I don't want to get out until the sun is coming up. I LOVE my sleep.

I have trouble with bouts of insomnia, I have two children under the age of 3, and I have the bladder of a woman who has had two kids in two years..... sleep is precious. That is why I don't get up.

I have a really good idea for a horror story floating around in my head. I've been tossing around ideas for about a year or more now. I just can't seem to get it started. Just ideas.... I'm horrible with trying to come up with anything more than a short story.

I forgot how much the show COPS cracks me up. It's hard to believe that people like this exist....

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

100 Posts ~ Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day

Along with it being Valentine's Day, this is also my 100th post. I am in a somewhat better mood overall. It is still midwinter, snowy, grey, cold, and I've been pretty much stuck indoors for about a month, BUT I'm dealing with it better.

Kenzie is getting a little better as well. She has become so defiant lately. She screams if she does't get her way, and she growls at you. Then if she still doesn't get her way she ends up crying. For a while there it seemed like my whole day was filled with screaming and crying 24/7. It was driving me absolutely nuts. I just didn't know what to do.

I have a better grip on it now. I just have to remember to stay calm and not to let her get her way. She will figure out that it's not working for her and eventually quit. Like I said, she's already calming down some.

Some reflections on the blog: I started this as a way to vent my frustrations and fears of mommy hood. Also as an outlet for some of my more creative endeavors. It really has turned into more of a journel type blog. I have come a long way since I started. My emotions are so much more in check, I have gained some control over my panic attacks *which are almost non-existent now*. I am getting more and more back to my "normal" self every day.

I want to thank those of you who have been here for my journey so far. Your comments and support have helped me more than you know. Sometimes that lil friendly note made my day and kept me from totally losing it. Hugs all around and good feelings sent your way!

Special thanks go out to Diner Girl, E-dog, Bernie, and Velvet. You guys rock and thanks for reading my ramblings!

and on to other things:

concerning Valentine's Day,

Brad is such a good husband. He continues to make my dreams come true. Those of you who are regular readers might remember my post about concerts. One of my all time favorite groups is The Police. I have always regretted that I never saw them in concert.

My hubby who is awesome knows this and for Valentine's Day he got us tickets to see The Police at Madison Square Gardens!!!! A weekend in the city! My dream to see them in concert will come true! Whoooooo Hooooo! * yes I did the happy dance*

He also got me some beautiful roses and of course some yummy yummy chocolate! I love you baby!

I can't believe I'm going to see STING!!!!! *yes I'm happy dancing again*

Tuesday, February 06, 2007


This is my 99th post. I am in a real crappy mood lately and that's why I haven't been keeping up here. I don't feel like posting, and I definitely don't want my 100th post to be about how shitty I feel lately about everything. It's early February, the sun is sporadic, the snow is is cool, but I've got no one to play in it with me. I'm maxed out in mommy world right now. When I feel better I will post my 100th...until then I'm just gonna be MIA for a bit.