A Little Bit

It's getting to be more of an enjoyment again. I am starting to feel the urge to write. Maybe it's the sunshine making me feel better, I dunno.

My uncle that I talked about last time passed away that Friday evening. He lived a great life. Was in full control of himself and had all his marbles when he passed. (Although some would question that later, we did call him "crazy Uncle Joe") We all loved him so much and he will be missed.

The girls and I went to a farm today. They loved it! We saw all kinds of chickens, goats, horses, cats, dogs, rabbits.... They got to hold a just layed egg in their hands and feel how warm it was from the momma chicken. Kenzie got to pet horses, which is her most favorite thing in the world. It was so cute the way this one horse really took to her. He came right up to her and gave her kisses. She was in horse heaven. I have got to get her started on some riding lessons.

Not much else to discuss today. Gonna try dying eggs for the first time this year, and we are going to try and make some Panoramic sugar eggs as well..we'll see how they all turn out. I'll try to get pictures.

3 Stages

Today has been a strange day.
Three things going on in my life today. All of them centered around hospitals.

Brad hurt his knee about a month ago. Never knew what he really did or when exactly, just woke up the day after our Mardi Gras party and couldn't walk. Ended up he had a torn miniscus...had to have outpatient surgery today to take care of it. He was not too thrilled about the whole situation, but he was very brave. The operation went well (so the doc says) and he is doing a fine job of recuperating on the living room couch.

Brad's brother is having his first child today. They scheduled an induction for today. We still haven't heard anything about the birth...keeping our fingers crossed that everything goes well. I am of course worried because of my expierence with induction. I went through the same procedure when I had Kenzie and I almost bled to death. I fully believe that it was because I was induced. So..I am not for it AT ALL! One of those "If I'da known then what I know now" kind of things. (Just heard that new nephew was born at 3:30 this afternoon. YAY!)

Last of all, my great uncle is in the hospital in Little Rock. He fell the other day and cracked his skull. He has internal bleeding and has pretty much been non-responsive and in a coma like state since it happened. He is 93 years old and has had a GREAT life and when he passes, because it is going to happen within the next 24 hours or so, he will go before he became unable to care for himself in his own home, which was about to happen. So....it is not a totally sad occasion. What IS sad is that his wife who is 93 as well, is in the hospital with a broken hip. She is in a totally different town than he is in, and I fear that she will not be able to say goodbye to her husband...that upsets me. I would so want to be with Brad if ever in the same situation. I just feel so bad for my Aunt and my family for being in such an impossible situation.

So...new life, middle life adapting to aging and old life passing on.

Like I said, just a strange day for me.

I'm sticking with Blue

I am wearing blue eyeshadow today. And it's sparkly! Now some of you wouldn't think that was anything out of the ordinary. So what, who cares what color eyeshadow you wear. Well, a lot of folks would say that blue is soooo 80's. They wouldn't be caught dead wearing blue.

I don't care. I say bring back the 80's! Bring back the blue eyeshadow!
Bring back the mile high bangs!
Bring back the bow heads, the skaters, the preppies!
The flourescent colors are back, why not the bold Wham! style word tees, the cut up sweats, the tight rolled jeans!
I want to see bandanas wrapped around legs!
I want to see prairie skirts, puffy sleeves, and feathered bangs!
I want to see boat shoes, and penny loafers!
I want to see extremely fat people wearing spandex bike shorts!
And I want to see girls wearing jellies!
Bring it all back!!

I'm not scared!

I'm just saying...I like my blue eyeshadow.

I got the I don't want to write Blue's

My friend contacted me over Facebook today and wanted to know when I was going to start blogging again. I told her I didn't know. I wasn't enjoying writing anymore right now. It doesn't bring me the joy that it used to bring. I can't really explain it to anyone. I like to write and I miss it, but the effort it takes to work writing into my daily madness of children, snow, dogs, dinners, taxiing, exercise, cleaning, and whatever else happens to pop up just seems too much.

I am writing now because I have already given my children a bath, cooked dinner, done the dishes, and my husband is "out with the boys".

Writing has always been cathartic for me. It helps me get my thoughts and feelings in line. Maybe that's one of the reasons my anxiety levels have increased over the past year instead of decreasing. (among other things) When you take a majority of what you enjoy doing out of your life it would stand to reason that your sanity would be a little off kilter. (Not saying that I'm crazy, but I AM a little crazy.....isn't that part of my blog's title? HA!)

So, Here I am writing. Let's see if I can do it on a regular basis and let's see if it helps me out at all.

The thing that is most on my mind tonight. Snow. I hate it right now. I used to think snow was pretty cool. Not so much anymore. I can not tell you the last time my youngest child went to pre-school. We have had so many snow days now I think we will be going to school til July. It wouldn't be so bad if there was something to do here, or somewhere to go. I could take the girls to the mall to play or to the indoor play area at McD's. The only problem with those places is that they are germ havens. Everytime we have gone to either place one of the girls has ended up puking her guts out that night or the next day. I really don't want to deal with that.

We have sledded, walked, had snowball fights, and made snow angels. The thrill is gone. It is beautiful, I will give it that. I'm just over it now, and need some distance. I think if it didn't snow again until next December I would be okay then.

I have cabin fever and I'm sick of having the kids here all day. They are driving me and each other crazy and I know I make them crazy too. I want my schedule back!!! And sunshine, I'd like some sunshine please! I'm putting in my order to God right now. An order of sunshine and temperatures above freezing on the fly! Let's 86 snow for the season.....