Thursday shall now be FOOD DAY!

I have totally ditched my diet since Brad is gone. Went to the dreaded evil vile place called Mc Donald's tonight and got a Hot Fudge Sundae. Why is it that their sundaes taste so freaking good to me. There is probably nothing that is real food in there....all super processed, chemical, lab created stuffage. It's probably full of addicting chemicals, just like with cigarettes...McD's just doesn't want us to know.....*creepy music plays*.... I have watched Super Size Me so many times it's ridiculous. It's just amazing to watch that guy's body change so dramatically over one month. Since watching that movie I think I have eaten at Mc D's three times?? It just really grosses me out now...and I'm trying to save up for when the girls get older. You KNOW they are going to want to go and eat there all the time. I can already hear the chorus of "Mom can we get a happy meal?" coming from behind the driver's seat.

And whatever happened to the McDonaldland Cookies???? When Happy Meals first came out, you got a burger, fries, COOKIES, and a toy. Now there are no cookies... why? I dont' know a kid who doesn't like cookies. Where did the cookies go? Why aren't they in the Happy Meal anymore? Inquiring minds want to know...

So... Brad is gone til tomorrow. He flew down to Arkansas so he could work the Rolling Stones concert. How cool is that? He does light rigging for concerts. A neato kind of job, specially when you get to watch the Stones. He is supposed to bring me home something cool from the show. I am home alone with Lyanna. Kenzie is staying with the grands. YAY!! Two nights in a row. It's been nice and quiet at home.

Susan *MIL* and I went to the mall today and shopped. Took the girls with us. I bought myself some socks.....I finally get out and go shopping with another woman and I buy socks. SHeesh! I bought Brad something, Kenzie something, Lyanna something.... I am pathetic.

Sunday is Poetry Day

Blissful Chaos

Blissful chaos
you set in motion
never knowing
that one click away
was Me.
Routines shattered gladly
trails of stagnation
lost in the void of loneliness
falling further behind.

So I decided I was gonna make each day of the week something special: Sunday will be poetry day. Today this is one I wrote. :) Don't be too harsh on me now.

I spoke too soon about the nice weekend. Last night had to be one of the worst since we brought Lyanna home from the hospital. She has decided that she is only going to sleep 30 minutes to an hour at a time. Then she is going to wake up and scream for 30 minutes before going back to sleep. Thank goodness I have such a great husband. He got up with both of them this morning and let me sleep in some.

Ugh....babies are so hard sometimes! I don't know how single moms do it. I would lose it totally...but it wasn't so hard when it was just Kenzie. Two babies is definitely harder to deal with on a daily basis.

Needless to say we Did NOT get up and go to church today. I didn't even get out of my pj's til around 3 I think. But I did do my exercise! Yay for me!

Some cool things have happened lately. After my husband contacted one of his friends he hadn't talked to in about 10 years, he sent them to our website. The guys wife read my blog and sent me a wonderful email.... so Libby THANKS! We are now trading our mom stories. It's cool cause we have so much in common.

The other cool thing is that I made up with a past friend. It was a difficult thing for me to do with her. I had gone to her during a extremely crappy time in my life for support and guidance and she had dumped me. She believed another's person's lies and sob stories over what was the truth and it made me look bad. Instead of being a shoulder for me I was left with no one.

Now I am usually pretty independant and can handle most things on my own but this, like I said, was an exceptionally crappy time. I had my best friend in high school do that to me as well. Dump me when I needed her support the most...so it happening a second time really cause me to have some serious trust issues. I still have them. It takes me a VERY VERY long time to trust anyone now. I have a hard time opening up and letting someone in to know how I really feel and if I need emotional support....

but me and this person made up the other day. I even cried. We have talked off and on since the incident... and we started talking about it that day. She apologized for not being there for me and listening to the other idiot instead of both sides. It meant a lot to me to know that she didn't think bad of me, and that she was sorry. Whoo hoo! good things do happen!!

Had a pretty good weekend too. Kenzie went and stayed with the grandparents Friday night. Yes they are back from their long vacation to Texas. I was so glad to see them and so were the girls. Kenzie had a great time over there..she was totally worn out today when she came home. Poor thing, we have started letting her eat "big people" food and she had bad poo poo tonight. She wouldn't eat lunch today so I think she had a tummy ache. Poor lil thing.. I hate it when she doesn't feel good.

Brad and I went out to eat at the BrewPub.. I had a Raspberry wheat beer and a big fat juicy hamburger:.......not on the diet.... oh yeah and greasy french fries. It was sooooooooooooo good! Then we came home and sat and vegged out in the hot tub. It was nice to be able to both get in at the same time. Usually one of us is watching the girls while the other is in the tub.

Today was lazy as well. We sat around doing nothing. Kenzie came home around noon thirty. We put her down for her nap and watched Walk the Line. Pretty good movie. Went to the grocery store, had dinner, and played with the girls. A very quiet, nice, weekend.