Just Stuff...Again

Alright...so not feeling like I have much to say tonight. Brad has gone to Arkansas for his 20th class reunion. I stayed home because I have things to do to get ready for Bible School at church next week. That should be interesting, but I refuse to talk about it here on the grounds that I just don't want to talk about church stuffage here. So there...

Took the girls to Mc D's, known in our household as "Boys", to wear them out so they would go to bed tonight. It seemed to have worked well. They are both passed out cold upstairs and I'm having some nice quiet time. I don't know why they call Mc Donald's "Boys". That is what Kenzie has called it since she could talk....wierd I know. She also thinks Grimace is Henry the Octopus from "The Wiggles"....go figure...she's two.

In my quest to lost the hideous baby fat I put on since having two babies in less than a year...I joined Weight Watchers. This will be my second full week. I go for weigh in tomorrow. I did pretty well the first week and lost a whole pound and a half....I don't know about this week. I didn't do as well..... made cup cakes for the girls and ate one.... *big sigh here*.... sometimes you gotta go for the pink frosting.

I am diligently exercising every day during the week. Doing pretty well, and have a whole routine in the mornings now. I rotate between aerobic and a combo of aerobic/weights. I am determined to get back my pre baby figure!!

One week til we go to New York to see The Police at The Garden. I CAN NOT WAIT!!! This is the summer of concerts for us....here is our list for the summer..ending in September:

1. Rush - Pittsburgh

2. The Police - Cleveland

3. The Police - New York

4. Dave Matthews - Pittsburgh

5. The Wiggles - Colombus *I'm counting them for the girls*

6. Scorpions - somewhere close to Detroit

Pretty good summer...I tried to talk Brad into going to some more but he said no way..besides it's too hard to make sure we have a sitter each time... I can't wait til we can start taking the girls with us to some of these...besides "The Wiggles". Ha!

I don't think I've put up any pics from any of the concerts yet. I have one of Brad and I from the Rush show...I'll leave you with a couple of those.

Funky Day

Today was truly a funky day. I'm still not getting much sleep. Lyanna keeps waking up every 3 hours or so, and Kenzie for some reason is waking up at night again. Kenzie usually falls right back to sleep but not always. I find myself juggling children at 3 am. Brad helps, he gets up and makes bottles for Lyanna. Which is a great help, because if he didn't she'd end up screaming her head off.

One night of un interrupted sleep will be sooooooo freaking nice. So..I got up today, fed both the girls, watched some t.v. with them *Baby Einstein* of course. Then did my weights work out. Goofed off with the girls some but they are both sort of cranky today. Lyanna has a runny nose and Kenzie is cutting molars..ugh! Fixed them lunch and put KC down for a nap. Of course Lyanna doesn't want to sleep at all. She just wants to be held all day. So I end up carrying her around all afternoon. She finally takes a nap around 3:30. Just in time for Brad to come home and Kenzie to wake up...

I got no LeeAndra time today!!! I wanted to go and take a nice long bubble bath after dinner..went and ran the water...forgot the washing machine was on...no hot water for me. *much weeping and wailing* fucking figures. Nothing was working right for me today.

I'm hungry as hell, I want something sweet and very bad for me. Ice cream, candy bars, cookies, chocolate cake, doughnuts.....oooooooooooo Doughnuts from the place back home....my mouth is watering. Anything with lots and lots of sugar. Mmmmmmmmmm sugar.

I didn't lose any weight last week...still at 128lbs...ugh. That kinda bummed me out too. I should be hard core sticking to my diet cause of that but I only want to cheat on it more.

I just wish I had someone to go shopping with me...I miss my mom for that and Leahe. We always had a blast going shopping. Oh well... such is life.

I'm CRRRRAAAZZZYYYY!!!

Not too much going on. At least I don't think there is. I went to the ob/gyn today. Everything is good she says. I have to go for my first mammogram in 3 months. I am a "mature" woman now, so says the nurse...whatever. Lyanna went to the doctor on Tuesday for her 4 month check up and shots. She weighs 14 pounds now. She is getting so big!!!

I'm still not getting good sleep at night. Lyanna wakes up every 2 hours wanting to eat. I've tried to put her back down without eating but she's not having it...it sucks very much cause I'm tired as hell. I'm still doing my workouts everyday and eating on my diet...I don't think it's working yet. According to the home scale I've lost almost 5 lbs. According the doctor's office scale I've lost 1. Sheesh!!!!

I go to the psychiatrist tomorrow...see if he wants me to start taking drugs for my post partem depression/anxiety. I'm feeling much better as time goes by, but I don't want to feel these anxious episodes...almost panic attacks anymore. That's not me! I used to be this totally outgoing person, I loved to go places and meet new people and just go out. Now I get freaked out if I have to leave the house most times....ugh! I hate feeling like that.

I just need to find my identity again. It's gotten lost and tied up with the babies and diapers and toys and cartoons and such... bleh!!!

New Year Resolutions

Well it's a new year and I've actually made a resolution this time. I usually think new years resolutions are stupid. I can't really think of anyone who has ever kept theirs. BUT.... Since I had my two daughters I gained quite a bit of weight. Of course all women gain weight when they have children, it's pretty much unavoidable..but I want to lose mine, not carry it around forever. So....I am on a diet and exercising 6 days a week.


I am so funny sometimes... I am using "The Biggest Loser" workout video for my exercise. I just loved that show. It was "inspiring" for me I guess. I am also eating on the zone diet. So far so good. Haven't seen any weight loss yet, but it's coming I can feel it. I know my body is adjusting to things cause I had a couple of days where I just felt WEIRD. Woke up in the middle of the night all sweaty and kind of panicky... but overall I'm feeling good.

My target is 110lbs..we'll see how I do.